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Okay, I apologize that this and the past few entries havent been about discernment really. But I have some interesting things going on in my life.

Have you ever felt unsupported?? Not in a discernment kind of way but in general. i got accused recently of not having enough team spirit within the house, but I didnt have the courage to stand up to the house father and tell him that his incredulous attitude towards things is probably the reason for it. I didnt get to chose to live in this house, I got placed here...BUT peoples spirits are not at ease here, and I truely believe it is the housefather to blame.. let me explain: He leaves in april (along with the housemother and their child) so he is already step back from responsibility (not that he really claimed any to begin with) and the house feels it, along with the people in the house. I mean how does he have time to teach a seminar course but not enough time to sit in the living room with the villagers??
And by him creating this chaotic atmosphere, my world has flipped upside down as well, My room is a mess, I havent filled in my americorps paper work in 3 months, i barely have times for showers (i have to take them during morning work time)...I just dont understand. So i feel unsupported by houseparents who dont give a shit...now why am i complaining?