Alright, aside from my rather recent hiatus of discernment, or rather my persistant procrastination. I would like to inform you that I am back on the discernment track, well I never left it, I only got sidetracked!
I have begun to read "The Passion Test", which was a suggestion given to me by the director of the LifeChoices program of "the Adorers." I am not sure as to whether the book will bring any clear insight into anything in my life right now, but we shall see how the course of things turns out.
I had already arranged a come and see weekend with the Salesians, but as my luck would have it, it doesnt work out with my house, which is a bummer because I was really looking forward to it, but if God will's be to get there, I shall get there in due time, however i am afraid (as I often am) that Sr. Colleen is beginning to think that I am not serious about my discernment, which I could see how. I mean I arrange this weekend and then cancel, it could be as if I really don't want to come, or that for the lack of a better phrase "I'm bullshitting." Which simply isn't true.
As I have had to make a decision: I have applied at the Camphill Special School in PA, which is where my heart is drawing me, as I love children and one of my passions (not derived from the passion test) is working with people who have developmental disabilities, and I have to visit the school before I am fully accepted as I may find out, which I highly doubt, that I don't reallylike it there, in which case I will have to find a new path. The other choice was the Salesian weekend. I felt as though I was being pulled in 2 directions. As, I am going to friends wedding in february and am already gone for a week! At least at this time I plan to be gone for a week. So that means I really can't go anywhere for a month or so... and my houseparents leave in april, so I have to be here after they leave. My visit with the school is april 16th-19th. So that leaves march but, as i am away in both april and february for extended amounts of time, I am unable to do anything in march. So I believe I may have to wait til June to visit the Salesians!
This is where I am, nothing too invigorating or exciting I know!
About Me
- Sunshine Flows
- I am me. I cry too easily, I laugh too loudly... and I am singularly clumsy. I live each moment as it is given to me, not expecting much but learning that lessons are around every corner. I love Jesus, and I am forever looking to find where God might lead me next.
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