Limbo

Someone on myspace wrote to me when I asked the question how do you know you are called to religious life:
"I've had people tell me "it'll be perfectly clear to you" when I was discussing my discernment. Problem is that that is not always the case, especially when you're not the community to start with. I have found that the best way to discern is to actually visit and spend time with different communities. Sometimes we can get these really romantic views of things in our head only to get there and realize that it's nowhere near what we wanted. So my advice: visit communities; if you feel something drawing you, investigate it. And of course: PRAY."

My reply was:

You see I have visited communities. And I know about the romantic view and the thing is when visiting the communtities they seem just like that..a romantic view of what religious life should be, sometimes I wonder if the sisters are just putting on a show for the discerners that weekend!! I dunno! I pray but I just keep going back and forth. It gets annoying not just for me but for everybody else cause one time i will say that i am becoming a sister and then 8 months down the line I am talking about this guy I am dating or interested in, I suppose though its their romantical views coming into play as well! They believe that one who may become a sister has to be a virgin and isnt interested in male companionship!

I have come to another empasse.

SOMONE HELP ME PLEASE

and I also apologize for not writing about christmas and the holy nights..havent had much time but this evening I should have plenty of time, since I am off! So I will most likely write this evening then.