Now the wierdness has settled...

Okay,
The homesickness has subsided for the most part, which I am thankful for.
Can I honestly become a nun/sister with these kinds of emotions? I mean I believe that if I am truely happy, like I was here last year, then I won't be as homesick! Thats an interesting theory.
Last year I always wondered why i seemed weak against the german girls...they never seemed to get homesick or cry, meanwhile for the first week here, I cried like a baby.

I have taken a few crucial steps in my discernment process recently.
I have contacted the few orders that I am interested in and have signed up for a couple of online retreats, as I am too busy at this time of year to attend any in house retreats. I have yet to hear back from 2 of the 4 orders, but thats to be expected because we all have busy lives this time of year.

I have actually started to re-read the book "Jesus and the Disinherited" by Howard Thurman. I had to read it for theology class my Junior year of high school, its funny how when you read something years later, you often get more out of it. I highly recommend this book. It gives wonderful insights and ponderings for example : What if Jesus were born into a wealthy family, would we still have the same belief system?
Interesting isn't it.

I believe tomorrow I will start my Morning Bible/prayer routine again, as I haven't been following it recently.
I have been asked to read the weekly bible reading in my house now, every morning...which is wonderful! This week we have 1/3 of the "apocolyptic words on the mount of olives," which in away is fitting to christmastide but not entirely, BOY am I glad that they have the alternative reading of "the annunciation" according to the gospel of Luke...This is fitting for me as I have been cast in our christmas eve production as the Arch-
Angel Gabriel...

I was confused when I got cast as this part, because you see, I am normally cast as a shepherd-like person, funny, charismatic, hyper, juvenile...and here, this year I am cast as an angel, NOT JUST an angel but an ARCHANGEL. Baffling! I have done some research on Gabriel and have found out that he is the patron of lost souls...HOW DID THAT HAPPEN? I get cast as the patron of lost souls, when I am in fact trying to find mine!

The lord really does work in mysterious ways!

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